I've got my last exam for the semester in the morning
It's pretty much the most enjoyable course that I've been doing all year. Heck, I'm lovin' the whole marketing thing!! Sadly, I'm not as enjoying it as much as the course I was doing last year.... games production and design...I think it was called.....
Despite how much I really enjoy marketing, I'm now unable to even contemplate doing it for the rest of my life. I had enjoyed doing modeling and animations, teaching my self new ways of doing things, and getting all annoyed when things wouldn't work the way they should; but overall, it enjoyed it and the end result s make me happy.
So, I'm deciding whether to finish my marketing major here, then going to Qantm or something to do a bachelor in animations or what not. When I write it down like this it doesn't seem that bad. Id' be 24-25 by the time it's all finished.....but I want to do the JET programme after I graduate for a couple of year....so I'd be nearing my 30's.....and I don't find that appealing to me at all. I want to make soemthing on myself, and be in an important position... as pig headed as that sounds.
Then again, don't we all?
Life's pretty uncertain, and not to mention short. and anything can happen to you at any time. You can get sick and never recover from it. So I can't afford to not get a stable job and try to earn enough so that if that does ever happen, my family (if I get one) will be finically stable. There is so much I do want to do, and most of all, I want to establish my owning gaming company, and I can't do that when I'm in my mid-thirties - 'cause that's the only time in my life were I know I'd have enough money to even attempt that!!
I know that it's highly competitive, has long hours, low pay, and a high degree of uncertainly of getting employed...and staying employed, and you have to work your ass of to keep your skills up
But, that has never been an issue for me
They say do what you enjoy most, and you never have to work a day in your life
So, I'm guessing over the break....I'll have to really consider if this is just a really enjoyable hobby which I should per-sue...or just keep it at that.... shoot me saying it, but, I'm actually not that bad at modeling...yeah, it kinda needs work; but for someone whos only modeled an egg and cup before.... it's something right??
I dunno, but the only thing that keeps me realistic is my never changing silly, mediocre drawing skills....and that there are people far better that I out their
If I do get to work in the gaming industry, I guess I could live with it...I dunno
I've always wanted to get my studies out of the way so I can just work... so I just keep hoping that something will come up that will just make me change my mind, and make me not want to do it as a career.... I have my doubts about that though
I had even though, why don't I just work my ass off, and work in a whole range of different programs and work on my art 100%....so that I can just submit a portfolio or demo-reel, without having to go get some BA. 'Cause, it doesn't matter how much qualifications you have, if you're shit, you're shit; you can't cover that aspect up with some pretty pink ribbon. Though, you can't really say that that's the way to go- or to say that that would even work!!
I enjoy marketing...but I'm passionate about animation
So, do I be realistic for "stability", or per-sue a childhood dream?
If I lived interstate, I know which one I would've chosen